I am slightly disappointed I didn’t get to follow my original video plan but it would be foolish for me to get caught up on that. My body needs the best I can give it today, and wasting time on things I have no control over is not productive; it’s actually very counter-productive.
As I mention in the video, physical and mental health go hand in hand and influence each other immensely. If my digestion is particularly bad one day then I am much more likely to be very anxious. Conversely, if I let myself get angry and depressed about my situation then not only does my body feel it (everywhere!) but it also means I am less likely to treat myself with the love and respect that I deserve and need right now. So I’m putting on my brave pants today (I had them on when doing the video already hehe), and will focus on proper feeding, breathing, yoga (basic gentle stretches), a bath, maybe some reading if my brain has the power to follow (I’m reading Why Can’t I Get Better? by Dr. Richard Horowitz, a recent book and absolute gem about chronic Lyme disease and associated infections). And I will most likely watch a movie, or a few episodes. One thing is for sure, I will be taking it very slowly and trying to listen to my body at every step of the way (ok, so two things are for sure).
Sounds like a fun relaxing day? It really isn’t. My body is never relaxing, and my brain is constantly busy being triggered with pain signals converging from all over. And I have very little energy to go on. At best, I manage to keep the discomfort manageable so that I don’t get totally overwhelmed and depressed (because seriously, ain’t nobody got time for that!). 🙂
And last but not least… Go Habs Go!!